I have been asking myself this question a lot these last 6 days.
This is why...
1. I have left school by 4 (or 4:30 when I had a staff meeting) all week long.
2. I'm not falling asleep at 6:30 each night.
3. I do not feel panicked about school.
Sure, there is more that I could do.
Sure, I'm tired, but I can still watch some tv and talk to my family after supper.
Sure, I think about school a lot.
But, I'm not wearing "freak out" pants this year. I feel calm on the inside, which is a good thing.
And as I left today, I saw my student. We smiled, we waved, I said "see you tomorrow" and kept walking. Three seconds later I heard the sweet voice (and I knew who the voice belonged to!!!) "bye Mrs. Bartel." So wonderful. We have been together for a mere 7 half days and I already feel like I know the kids (just a tiny bit about the academics, but so much more).
I think this is going to be my Best Year Yet!
What a wonderful post!! How nice it is to be enjoying your students, the teaching, and the learning. I think that is probably what it is all about!
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The Very Busy Kindergarten
I can relate to the panick feel. There is a knot in my chest everyday as a drive to work. As I pray through it and be proactive in being the best teacher I can be and kind to co-workers. It disipates. I still though always have this feeling of impending doom like I am doing something wrong or missing something important the district requires. Now I know what you and others went through in the past.
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