It was a great year. A magnificent year.
I'm tired and the kids are tired, because we have learned and grown so much. We have put a lot of energy into learning.
And now it is summer vacation.
It started about 1:00 today. I was feeling angry and had to somehow stuff it down and make it to the end of the day. To dismissal.
After school I was irritated, but didn't really know why. And angry. Still trying to be a grown up and manage my upset.
At dinner (eating pizza with my family) it dawned on me. My sadness of the year ending was showing in the form of irritation, anger and general upset.
168 days together means something. To me and to the littles. The routine and rituals we created together are gone. What is next? Who are we if we are not together?
When I think about how this end affects me (and supposedly I am a grown up and can handle these strong feelings) I can start to understand why my class was a complete MESS today.
Now, will I be able to remember this next year and create a classroom where there is ROOM for all of the feelings of the year ending?